What started as IDC (Infiltrating Ductal Carcinoma) in 2011, then turned into CHF (Congestive Heart Failure) in 2013, probably partially caused by chemotherapy along with a genetic pre-disposition. Here we are now in March 2016 and I am newly diagnosed with Stage IV breast cancer in the left breast and liver (LMBC - liver metastasized breast cancer).

So the focus has shifted yet again, BUT... I continue to THANK YOU for your prayers, love & support. I receive them with open & loving arms. My wish is that I will gain strength from you, will provide helpful information and strength to others & will help to strip away the fears we each experience.

I am strong. I am loved. I am healthy. I WILL SURVIVE!

Have you or your loved one had their annual mammogram? PLEASE, don't put it off. Speaking from experience, I highly recommend monthly self exam as well. And if you are now cancer free of breast cancer, do everything you can to insist that your doctors follow up with an occasional PET Scan and labs for tumor markers.

Contents may be uplifting, sad, funny, scary, downright depressing ~ THAT IS CANCER .... at it's best, at its worst.

PLEASE ~ Feel free to share this blog with anyone who is interested to learn about my journey. While I welcome their support, I hope that by sharing this experience freely to the universe I may help to support others by breaking down some of the barriers and fear associated with breast cancer and the treatment.


Thursday, May 17, 2012

One Year Ago

One year ago today..... I had my last chemotherapy treatment at Redwood Regional Cancer Center in Santa Rosa, or at least I sure hope it is the last. You see, once the "c" sneaks into your life, you are always wary that it may visit again. But enough of that kinda talk for now.... La-la-la-la-la (go away thoughts).

Yes, one year has past since that day of my last chemo on May 17, 2011. And while I went through oh so much more after that; such as surgery and then radiation, the chemo was really the hardest part of it all. Looking back now, I realize just how debilitating it all was, and how I put on a strong face during the ordeal. But then that is what we do to fight something -- we muster up our strength and stay strong to fight the fight. And I am so glad to have it all behind me and to struggle to remember some of the details. Thank you for that lapse of memory.  :-)

Today I am happy to say that I feel very well and healthy. I'm a few pounds lighter (about 15) and I guess I have cancer to thank for that. I feel pretty strong and can do most of what I did before cancer, working hard around the farm with Mark, but resting when I need to. These set backs teach us to be easier on ourselves and take "the moments" when we need them. And when I say moments, I especially refer to moments to chase after the two loves of my life, Nico and Gaige. I mean, is there a higher power, a God, a guardian angel, OR WHAT? Cause I know at least one of my daughters decided to start a family well before the word cancer entered our lives. What a way to end "the lost" year of 2011 but with two sweet little boy angels in my life. And what a wonderful Mother's Day I just had with them, and seeing what exemplary mothers my two daughters have become.

So I will muster up the strength to roll around on the floor with two crawling boys; lug their 20+ pound bodies up off the floor, into the stroller, into the high chair; take oodles of iphone pics all the time (over 2500 on my phone right now); post them on Facebook and bore the heck out of everyone; prepare for the chasing when the walking starts, and the falls and bumps and tears; take long 2+ hour walks all around the wonderful Davis walking paths, and my lovely home town of Sonoma; and just enjoy "the moments". Oh dear, this won't be hard at all, it will be all pure joy. Because, who knows what the next day, week, year, will bring to any of us.

For now I gear up for blood work and my semi-annual mammogram on the left breast later this month. But I'm feeling very positive and optimistic to get that behind me, too. Each of these upcoming monumental dates and checkups will be good to get past this year, and I look forward to each and every one of them.

So let's just enjoy these moments!

Here we are one year ago after my last chemo. Looks like I'm feeling pretty good, albeit hairless. Probably just thrilled to be done with that experience.
Just last week at Davis Farmer's Market with the two new loves of my life, Nico & Gaige. I'm a happy and lucky Grammie!
Mother's Day 2012: (L-R) Chris, Gaige, Sarah, Debbie, Alura, Nico, Stephan.


Debbie... aka the cancer warrior ... AND SURVIVOR!!!


No comments:

Post a Comment

Thank you for visiting and leaving a comment. Your comment will be reviewed and approved the next time I visit.