And on a positive note, I've been feeling a bit better the last few days, and the report also showed there has been little impedence just those last few days -- pretty incredible information this little friend of mine tracks. The good thing is there have been no pacing or shock treatments, or A-fib or V-fib, since the last ocurrence on 11/2/13. Although, it's been a pretty miserable 6 weeks (there's that word again) and its been really, really hard to stay positive and moving forward. I've had lots of moments, and Mark has been such a trooper for me, being strong, and ready to catch me at any moment. I put on my happy face, or as best I can, the rare instances when I get out in public, as this is what we do. It makes us feel better, and those around us too. But I wanted to be open about just how hard this has all been. Those baby steps are a bitch at times; especially when it feels like weeks since you've been able to take even a tiny one.
Today is feeling like a "good" day, and hopefully tomorrow will be the same. We even had lunch out and did a bit of shopping last week after my appointment. I've been sleeping better and in my bed rather than a chair; at least most of the time. And Dr. Dhar says I am a model patient, losing the weight I should (he said keep it right where it is), following his instructions, watching what I eat, trying to walk when I’m up to it. And I have two beautiful strong daughters, with the most adorable grandsons that give me so much joy. They check in all the time and visit when they can. Sure hope I can get back to helping them in spending one-on-one time with the boys so they get a break once in awhile.