What started as IDC (Infiltrating Ductal Carcinoma) in 2011, then turned into CHF (Congestive Heart Failure) in 2013, probably partially caused by chemotherapy along with a genetic pre-disposition. Here we are now in March 2016 and I am newly diagnosed with Stage IV breast cancer in the left breast and liver (LMBC - liver metastasized breast cancer).

So the focus has shifted yet again, BUT... I continue to THANK YOU for your prayers, love & support. I receive them with open & loving arms. My wish is that I will gain strength from you, will provide helpful information and strength to others & will help to strip away the fears we each experience.

I am strong. I am loved. I am healthy. I WILL SURVIVE!

Have you or your loved one had their annual mammogram? PLEASE, don't put it off. Speaking from experience, I highly recommend monthly self exam as well. And if you are now cancer free of breast cancer, do everything you can to insist that your doctors follow up with an occasional PET Scan and labs for tumor markers.

Contents may be uplifting, sad, funny, scary, downright depressing ~ THAT IS CANCER .... at it's best, at its worst.

PLEASE ~ Feel free to share this blog with anyone who is interested to learn about my journey. While I welcome their support, I hope that by sharing this experience freely to the universe I may help to support others by breaking down some of the barriers and fear associated with breast cancer and the treatment.


Wednesday, December 31, 2014

Love our Christmas Celebrations

Christmas has come and gone, and we survived some kind of intestinal bug. It took DH down pretty good for nearly a full week. Thankfully I only had to deal with it for a couple of days, and a much milder version. Regardless, it is never fun to be sick around Christmas. We were well for the actual holiday, though, so that is a positive note to it all.

We started off all the fun with our annual family holiday gathering. This is where most of my siblings come over for a day of nibbles and holiday cheer. As usual, my dear sweet sister and her family from Montana were greatly missed. A younger brother had a bug and wasn't able to join us either. But between our daughters and their families, including the three most adorable grandchildren I know (wink, wink), four of my siblings and their families, two cousins and spouses, and Gaigey's other Nana, auntie, uncle, and cousin, it was a full house and loads of fun. Everyone pitches in and brings appetizer type plates for us to graze on throughout the afternoon. Then of course there is some gift sharing, lots of visiting, playing outside on what was a nice sunny December Saturday, and just lots of fun times.

Then our girls and families join us Christmas Eve for a wonderful Cioppino dinner and overnighter. We are blessed that they still stay over and we can experience the magic of Christmas morning with them and their three little ones. I imagine that won't last for too many more years as they will most likely want to be in their own home for Santa to visit. Time will tell. Two 3-yr old boys in the house made for quite the active household. But I think everyone slept reasonably well. It was such fun to see the boys interact and play. They are so different, yet alike. It is such fun to see these two cousins getting to know each other and learning to share and play together. It can be such a challenge for a child who is learning all about and exerting their independence. But I think everyone had a good time together.

So now we have the house back to ourselves and are looking forward to a New Year.

I hope you enjoy a few snapshots from our holiday fun.

Alura and Madeleine Mae, our newest member of the family (nearly 5 months)

Nico & Maddie

Auntie Sarah reading to Nico & Maddie

Gaige getting Maddie to smile & laugh.

                               Cousin Denise & I

                                                                     Bob & Christine

And New Year's Eve, my sweetie of 42 years (our romance began on New Year's Eve) enjoyed a late lunch at one of our favorites - Rosso Pizzeria, then a movie (Wild), and home by 7:30pm. I think this should be a New Year's Eve tradition. I mean, one can start a new tradition at 42 years into a relationship, can't they?

2015 ~ We welcome you with open arms. 

Life is Good...

Debbie... aka the cancer SURVIVOR, 
AND now the Cardiomyopathy warrior!!!

THANKS for visiting! I look forward to your comments.

Wednesday, November 26, 2014

How is ICD Data Captured?

Very interesting explanation of an ICD (Implantable Cardioverter Defibrillator). Although mine is a St. Jude Model, rather than Medtronic. It shows how the ICD is monitored and tracked by a doctor and the device manufacturer.

But did you know that patients do not have access to this information, except when seeing their cardiologist once a quarter or so. And then the copy of the report is many pages and difficult to decipher by the lay person/patient. And usually any important information has happened weeks or months earlier. Sure would be nice to have this accessible to the patient on an ongoing basis, perhaps through a secure website. Just saying!!!

Life is Good...

Debbie... aka the cancer SURVIVOR, 
AND now the Cardiomyopathy warrior!!!

THANKS for visiting! I look forward to your comments.

Monday, November 24, 2014

Demystifying Ejection Fraction

You hear me talk about EF (Ejection Fraction) frequently. Basically, it is the key factor in my heart failure. This article takes a very simple approach to explain exactly what EF is and how it is measured. 

Based on my echocardiogram of January, my EF is still at 18%, which is considered severe heart failure. And based on my recent cardiologist appointment of a couple of days ago, although I am feeling pretty darn good these days, my ICD still records some series of weeks during each quarter when I am in "heart failure". I believe this means that is when my heart has trouble doing its job, even with the help of all the meds I am on and the ICD that will do pacing if needed (before shocking for heart failure). So while I often feel pretty good these days, it is a reminder that I need to stay vigilant with my low sodium diet, keep active, and stay healthy. Every day is a gift and I cannot forget that it is often very fragile, and we cannot be too careless with it -- even when that means simple, tiny steps that can mean life and death.

I hope you find this article. useful.

With each heartbeat, the heart contracts (or squeezes) and relaxes. Every contraction pushes blood out of the two pumping chambers (ventricles). When when heart relaxes, the ventricles refill with blood. The ejection fraction (EF) refers to the amount, or percentage, of blood that is pumped (or ejected) out of the ventricles with each contraction. This percentage, or EF number, helps your health care provider determine if you have heart failure or other types of heart disease.
Ejection Fraction
A normal heart pumps just over half the heart's volume of blood with each beat – a normal EF is 50 to 75 percent.
Here is a link to the full website:

Life is Good...

Debbie... aka the cancer SURVIVOR, 
AND now the Cardiomyopathy warrior!!!

THANKS for visiting! I look forward to your comments.

Monday, November 10, 2014

YSC Tour de Pink, West Coast

Last month, Mark and I were invited to participate in the 2014 Tour de Pink West Coast (TdP), put on by Young Survivor Coalition (YSC) It was an honor and a privilege to be part of the Cadence Sports staff team working this event.

2014 Tour de Pink West Coast was held October 17 - 18. The ride went from Paso Robles, CA to Point Mugu, CA. The three-day ride took an inspirational journey along the coast and through California's wine country. TdP is a rolling community, inspiring those who ride and work the event, and supporting young women. Riders choose to ride all three days (200 miles) or for one day.

Young Survivor Coalition (YSC) is a global organization dedicated to the critical issues unique to young women who are diagnosed with breast cancer. YSC offers resources, connections and outreach so women feel supported, empowered and hopeful.

YSC was founded in 1998 by three young women who were under the age of 35 when diagnosed. They were discouraged by the lack of resources available and the under-representation of young women in breast cancer research. Today, YSC is the go-to organization for young women facing a breast cancer diagnosis.

Here are some of our photos from the Staff side of the event.

Pizza night the evening we arrive and before all the fun began.

Some of the schwag that went into the goody bags for the riders.

First day ... and they're off.

Getting ready for afternoon check-in of riders.

Boston Strong

Friends & family greet riders in Solvang 

Greeting Dad at the finish line

Final day ends on the beautiful beach of Point Mugu

My new friend, and rider, Debbie, and her friends.

Here are some images from the event organizers.

Sure hope I have the energy to participate again next year. The event was very rewarding, but involved long, tiring days of all staff members. I pulled it off this year, but maybe once was enough. Time will tell.

 Life is Good...

Debbie... aka the cancer SURVIVOR, 
AND now the Cardiomyopathy warrior!!!

THANKS for visiting! I look forward to your comments.

Tuesday, October 28, 2014

Another Milestone -- 1 Year With ICD

Today marks my one year anniversary with my nearest and dearest "buddy", my ICD - Implantable Cardioverter Defibrillator. (Click on link to learn about this device).
A year ago I wrote about Procedure Day as I looked forward to the surgery to insert the ICD and then Feeling Liberated as I no longer depended on the LifeVest for shocking/defibrillating my heart should the urgent need arise.

It was a long and very slow road after surgery. I was pretty ill for 4 full months as my heart continued to struggle to keep fluid in check and I was constantly out of breath, tired, and had horrible indigestion. The good thing was it helped me to continue to drop weight for a total of 40 lbs lower from when the heart failure began. And even better was that finally in the Spring of 2014, after more medication changes and increases, I finally began to feel just "Ok". Within a few months, the preparations that were in the works for further surgery for either an LVAD or heart transplant stopped, and those were put on the back burner. But it wasn't until about April 2014 when I finally started to feel like a new woman with energy to get out and walk a few miles and enjoy my family and friends without the constant worry of what was around the corner. During this past year, I've had some scares with very rapid heart beats that my ICD has been able to pace and correct for me. I have not been shocked, thankfully; but my St. Jude ICD is there and ready should the need ever arise.

Today, I continue to get on with life enjoying my family and friends, camping, helping to care for our alpacas, working on my sewing and fiber projects, and snuggling with the three loves of my life, grandchildren Nico, Gaige, and Madeleine. My heart ejection fraction (EF) has not been tested since April, and at that time it was still in serious heart failure levels. But I feel good, and for now that is all that matters. The thought is that the EF has improved somewhat, and when the need arises to go through the expensive procedures again, we hope to get that good news.

So I am not out of the woods by any means, as those two before mentioned surgeries are still out there as future possibilities should the need arise. (Can't have heart transplant until 5 years cancer free, hence the LVAD option).   

But for the moment, this is what I prefer to concentrate on...

Sarah & Alura with the three grandchildren this past weekend, Gaige, Nico & Maddie

Gaige & Nico (each 3 yrs)

Alura with Madeleine (3 mos)

 Me and my sweetie on a recent camp trip

 Life is Good...

Debbie... aka the cancer SURVIVOR, 
AND now the Cardiomyopathy warrior!!!

THANKS for visiting! I look forward to your comments.

Monday, October 27, 2014

Breast Cancer Awareness Month

Yes, the month is almost over! October is breast cancer awareness month, and I've been a bit torn about all the pink and all the hype. As another blogger I follow pretty closely does, I wonder if we are really doing all we can to find a cure, and save those with metastatic breast cancer. Early detection, mammograms, and self exam, do not seem to be really all that matters. But that seems to be what is promoted most of the time. 

I had mammograms every single year since I turned 30. Did that prevent me from getting breast cancer, infiltrating ductile carcinoma to be exact? No, I found my lump on my own, quite accidentally. I won't dwell on it all, but really, really want to see a cure for breast cancer. That seems to be the most important thing right now. I just don't see it being prevented. Just saying how I feel today, at this moment in time. 

Considering all this, and the fact that I feel really good these days and am not dwelling on cancer; I still think of it daily, and am involved in my own way. So before this month escapes, I do want to bring some attention to the topic. And the following three items are what I will share with you today.

First, if you know me, you know I am an avid fiber fanatic. Not the fiber you eat, but fiber from animals, such as alpacas, that you can spin with a spinning wheel, or knit or weave into beautiful garments and objects. Just check out my website, Facebook Site & Farm Page, or Ravelry site, and this becomes evident! One of the well-known knit designers, Cat Bordhi is supporting cancer in her efforts with her book, The Art of Felfs (felted footwear for families). Cat is donating 100% of the book’s and pattern’s income to the research lab of Dr. David Krag at the University of Vermont Medical School because she believes the cancer research he is doing will replace chemotherapy not that far in the future. As anyone knows who has been through chemotherapy, and especially me who has had heart issues most likely contributed to by chemo, this is most exciting research. Read all about Dr. David Krag, his research and past accomplishments, and Felfs, on the link above.

My second link is on the topic of Ovarian Cancer, a silent killer. Hopefully this short video will help to provide the basics you need to know and share cues that one should be aware of.

Lastly, A few days ago I received this email from Allison Kent of Lehigh University. Allison's message is self explanatory. I often get messages on the blog from someone promoting a product, etc. regarding breast cancer, and I thought this to be one worthy of sharing with my audience.

Dear Debbie,

My name is Allison Kent and I am a student at Lehigh University.  I am in a product development class and am in the process of reaching out to those familiar with breast cancer who may be able to take a few minutes to answer a quick survey for us.  My team is hoping to develop a product to help support and organize Jackson Pratt drains to help make recovery easier and less painful. Would you be willing to possibly take our quick survey, send it to your your friends or family, and possibly even post it to your blog? We are hoping to get as many responses from those familiar with the recovery process to make our product most useful and practical. 

Here is the link to our survey: Thank you for your help!

Allison Kent

So, these are my public service announcements for the moment. My best to you all, especially those recently diagnosed, or continuing to fight the fight against breast cancer, or any cancer. Please try to take it one day at a time. All you can do is put one foot in front of the other, and go at your own speed. God Bless...

 Life is Good...

Debbie... aka the cancer SURVIVOR, 
AND now the Cardiomyopathy warrior!!!

THANKS for visiting! I look forward to your comments.

Friday, September 19, 2014

3 Years Since Last Radiation

YES... today marks my three year anniversary from the last radiation treatment on my left breast. It's been a long haul since then, with many ups and several downs. But today I can say I am feeling pretty darn good, and enjoying life as much as possible. The heart failure was/is the biggest setback, but symptoms are in check, despite what the Echo cardiograms reflect. So I will roll with it another day.

Recently we came back from a lovely five-day camp trip with a few days on the Yuba River near Downieville, and a few more days at Jamison Creek campground just outside of Johnsville (near Graeagle). It was a lovely time of warm weather, cool river water, finishing a great book, and doing a bit of knitting. And tomorrow it is the first family BBQ of the summer (long overdue) and time to introduce little Madeleine Mae to the rest of the family.

LIFE IS GOOD. Enjoy it while you can. Make the best of each and every day.

Nico (3 yrs) with baby sister Madeleine (3 wks)

Fun camp time in our lovely little trailer

The Yuba River; a fun place to relax and cool off.

 Life is Good...

Debbie... aka the cancer SURVIVOR, 
AND now the Cardiomyopathy warrior!!!

THANKS for visiting! I look forward to your comments.