What started as IDC (Infiltrating Ductal Carcinoma) in 2011, then turned into CHF (Congestive Heart Failure) in 2013, probably partially caused by chemotherapy along with a genetic pre-disposition. Here we are now in March 2016 and I am newly diagnosed with Stage IV breast cancer in the left breast and liver (LMBC - liver metastasized breast cancer).

So the focus has shifted yet again, BUT... I continue to THANK YOU for your prayers, love & support. I receive them with open & loving arms. My wish is that I will gain strength from you, will provide helpful information and strength to others & will help to strip away the fears we each experience.

I am strong. I am loved. I am healthy. I WILL SURVIVE!

Have you or your loved one had their annual mammogram? PLEASE, don't put it off. Speaking from experience, I highly recommend monthly self exam as well. And if you are now cancer free of breast cancer, do everything you can to insist that your doctors follow up with an occasional PET Scan and labs for tumor markers.

Contents may be uplifting, sad, funny, scary, downright depressing ~ THAT IS CANCER .... at it's best, at its worst.

PLEASE ~ Feel free to share this blog with anyone who is interested to learn about my journey. While I welcome their support, I hope that by sharing this experience freely to the universe I may help to support others by breaking down some of the barriers and fear associated with breast cancer and the treatment.


Sunday, May 17, 2015

Four Years Ago

It was a mere four years ago today that I went through my final chemotherapy treatment, May 17th, 2011. 

Wow, when I glance back at that post, I look better than I remember, and probably better than I am feeling then.

So that well known fifth year mark is within my grasp and feeling good. That's not to say I will be out of the woods, or that I can rest on my laurels. Not a day goes by that I am not thankful for these past four years, and any more that I am blessed with. It is the little things that give me joy, and frighten me. But it will be a feeling of accomplishment to get to the five year mark.

The frightening things, like in the breast biopsy I went through recently after a bit of precaution on my surgeon's and radiologists part, and mine as well. They do want to do another ultrasound in four months; and hopefully all is well when that time comes.

The joy in spending time with family and friends; especially my three adorable grandchildren. We've started having Gaige over for sleepovers and the most recent was two nights ago. A fun time shopping, making pizza, sleeping on the airbed and helping with chores was had by all. It was the first time it was just he and Grammie, which made it even more special. He gave me one of his special Lego Chimas to keep me company until Papa returned home today. 

Shaping the pizza dough can be lots of fun. Did you know it is real "squishy",  according to Gaige.
And recently I took Nico to the Tractor Museum in Woodland to check out all the tractors. It was me who did the sleep over there in Davis to give me some time to also hold little sweet Madeleine. Not to mention a fun morning with my daughter and both the grankids at the Davis Farmer's Market and the Whole Earth Festival at UC Davis campus. It was another fun and rewarding weekend with my grandkids.
Nico loved the big tractors & the little ones, too.

Maddie, at 9 months, already has six teeth and is walking across the room.

But cancer brings much sadness from time to time, as well. And those sad moments when we lose such a precious person to this terrible disease, as has happened again just recently, reminds us all of our mortality, and just how precious life is. And I believe that it resonates even stronger in those of us who have had cancer, or are currently fighting the disease with all their might. I know a lot of people who have first hand experience with this disease; either they themselves, or a loved one. The ups and downs are monstrous and really take a toll on self and loved ones. 

I try to follow the latest research and findings in this arena. But often it is hard to do, and sometimes I want to be the ostrich with my head in the sand. But then I remind myself of these three loves in my life, not to mention the rest of my family, and some very dear friends, and I do as I've mentioned over and over again -- take it one day at a time.

Here's to living life to the fullest.

Life is Good...

Debbie... aka the cancer SURVIVOR, 
AND now the Cardiomyopathy warrior!!!

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