|Papa and his two best buds.|
But my "good times" were fleeting. (maybe 1 good day for this trip, although "good" is a bit over exaggerated). Anyway, I was able to enjoy Saturday with the family in between a few naps. The walk out that morning to the beach to see the kids romp in the sand and waves, and hear their voices -- it was worth the struggle of that walk. We enjoyed time sitting in the sun facing the Bay too (it was a beautiful day) watching the kids hide & seek in the reeds and fly kites. Then enjoyed a nice grilled dinner contributed by all and some singing of the Happy Birthday song. I felt like I had accomplished a monumental task.
|Tall Ships re-enacting a battle off Doran Beach, Bodega Bay, CA|
|We have a jogger in the family|
|Contemplation... "So what really is the meaning of life again?"|
We returned home a day early (Sunday) at my request, especially knowing I had chemo Monday. I was not looking forward to this chemo. All I could think of was "how do I get feeling well enough to accept that "today is the next chemo again already," and I still feel like crap from the last one!!!!!" What Gives???
Sarah was my companion today. I apologized the whole way in as I would not be as entertaining as I was last week for Christine. And I was most definitely not. But then, as my Infusion Nurse, Matt, is pulling each bag for me to confirm my name and DOB on each, I check the drug names and start to remember that everything will be okay in a few minutes when I get those steroids, and then the anti-nausea drugs. Yes, this is why I come back -- to get a day or more in some form of relief before the next one.
We made a stop for more provisions at our favorite dispensary, and then Sarah suggested Cafe Citti takeout on the way through Kenwood. What a grand idea. Especially since my appetite just returned again, after losing nearly 5 more pounds this past week. And dinner was yummy, and I had a normal-sized portion for a change. Many reasons I am thankful.
So the plan this time is to stay on top of pain and nausea better and perhaps Cannabis will be my saving grace again. If it works, and doc has recommended, then....
AND a Cardiomyopathy warrior!!!
• I AM STRONG • I AM HEALTHY • I AM LOVED •