What started as IDC (Infiltrating Ductal Carcinoma) in 2011, then turned into CHF (Congestive Heart Failure) in 2013, probably partially caused by chemotherapy along with a genetic pre-disposition. Here we are now in March 2016 and I am newly diagnosed with Stage IV breast cancer in the left breast and liver (LMBC - liver metastasized breast cancer).

So the focus has shifted yet again, BUT... I continue to THANK YOU for your prayers, love & support. I receive them with open & loving arms. My wish is that I will gain strength from you, will provide helpful information and strength to others & will help to strip away the fears we each experience.

I am strong. I am loved. I am healthy. I WILL SURVIVE!

Have you or your loved one had their annual mammogram? PLEASE, don't put it off. Speaking from experience, I highly recommend monthly self exam as well. And if you are now cancer free of breast cancer, do everything you can to insist that your doctors follow up with an occasional PET Scan and labs for tumor markers.

Contents may be uplifting, sad, funny, scary, downright depressing ~ THAT IS CANCER .... at it's best, at its worst.

PLEASE ~ Feel free to share this blog with anyone who is interested to learn about my journey. While I welcome their support, I hope that by sharing this experience freely to the universe I may help to support others by breaking down some of the barriers and fear associated with breast cancer and the treatment.


Thursday, April 20, 2017

A Lot Better Today

Yesterday morning I awoke and was so disheartened, and just feeling down. Monday morning I had my annual echo cardiogram. It's been a full year and it always brings me anxiety; as I want to see some improvement over the last, which was an EF of 40%+/-, but I tell myself I will actually be happy if things are stable and my heart hasn't regressed. I had hoped to have the results by the end of the day, but just got the report yesterday. It was slightly lower, or so I thought. But then my Cardiologist, Dr. Dhar, emailed me to say he reviewed the test further and thinks my EF is actually around 30-35%. I just wanted to cry; and actually I did. I know..... It is far better than when I was first diagnosed with congestive heart failure and waiting for the five-year cancer free mark as a heart transplant could not be done before then. As time progressed, I miraculously improved, with lots of new meds on board, and the transplant was no longer being considered. Of course, rewind to a year ago and that is when the cancer returned metastasized to the liver. So a brand new roller coaster began, including mastectomy in November. I feel like I am just now reclaiming some energy and feeling a bit renewed, even though I take daily chemotherapy. So far things are stable, but the cancer is still there.

The news of the Echo and EF, and then feeling so sick and tired of hearing new cancer diagnosis was just starting to weigh heavily on me. No, not starting, CONTINUING to weigh heavily on me. No -- I'm not sick and tired of hearing about them really, please keep telling me; just SO SICK AND SAD of knowing that it seems to be so prevalent these days. And do not even begin to tell me there is some reason behind it, that we cancer victims (yes we are victims) are doing something wrong, eating the wrong thing, doing the wrong stuff, living the wrong way..... Even the professionals say it is so random that they cannot figure it out. Because believe me, if I knew what was causing all this, I would do what it takes to make changes this very second in time. There, that is off my chest. :-)

Backtrack slightly... On Monday morning my sister, Donna, left to return home to Montana after a week's stay with my dear sister Nancy, who just lost her sweet husband, Nat, to colon cancer. Nathaniel Davis died on April 9th. His services are tomorrow, Saturday. He fought long and hard, the valiant battle against this horrific disease. After 3.5 years fighting, staying positive, and being an inspiration to us all, the last few weeks were trying and very sad for my sister to watch him slowly fade, suffer, and still be there every moment with loving, gentle care. I cannot believe how difficult it all must have been. Yesterday, another dear friend shared that it was very similar when her husband passed of pancreatic cancer a few years back. I had not learned of what the final days were like until just then.

If that is not enough to just bring you down, I have heard about new cancer diagnoses nearly every day over the last few weeks, and it is just too, too much. Not to mention a dear family member who is working through a treatment plan right now. (More on that to follow)

I will shake this off I know, but yesterday was a bit rough.

I'm in contact with my cardiologist to learn more about the Echo. He wants me to research Entresto as a new medication possibility. My first concern is the mention not to take it with liver disease. I'll need to see if breast cancer mets in the liver is a concern. Either way, it just is hard news to swallow at the moment. Give me time and I'll shake it off as I always do.
 Found this beauty in my Cardiologists office
And then I was off to be with my grandson, which definitely cheered me up. And eldest daughter reminded me that it is just a number, and more important that I am feeling good, great actually! AND, the sun is shining. YIPPEE!!

Hope you all have a wonderful day.

Filling my life with love, laughter, family & friends!
~ Peace and Love ~

B  E  L  I  E  V  E


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1 comment:

  1. So grateful for you sweet sister.... see you tomorrow!


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