What started as IDC (Infiltrating Ductal Carcinoma) in 2011, then turned into CHF (Congestive Heart Failure) in 2013, probably partially caused by chemotherapy along with a genetic pre-disposition. Here we are now in March 2016 and I am newly diagnosed with Stage IV breast cancer in the left breast and liver (LMBC - liver metastasized breast cancer).

So the focus has shifted yet again, BUT... I continue to THANK YOU for your prayers, love & support. I receive them with open & loving arms. My wish is that I will gain strength from you, will provide helpful information and strength to others & will help to strip away the fears we each experience.

I am strong. I am loved. I am healthy. I WILL SURVIVE!

Have you or your loved one had their annual mammogram? PLEASE, don't put it off. Speaking from experience, I highly recommend monthly self exam as well. And if you are now cancer free of breast cancer, do everything you can to insist that your doctors follow up with an occasional PET Scan and labs for tumor markers.

Contents may be uplifting, sad, funny, scary, downright depressing ~ THAT IS CANCER .... at it's best, at its worst.

PLEASE ~ Feel free to share this blog with anyone who is interested to learn about my journey. While I welcome their support, I hope that by sharing this experience freely to the universe I may help to support others by breaking down some of the barriers and fear associated with breast cancer and the treatment.


Thursday, May 10, 2018

Do We Ever Really Get to Say Goodbye?

Do we ever really get to say goodbye? 

When we lose a loved one, dear friend, an acquaintance; do we ever get that moment at the end, or close to the end, to actually say goodbye. That moment when we know death is within a few days, to tell someone how much we love them, how dear they are to us, how we respect or look up to them, to wish them well on their journey, and actually say goodbye?

I’ve had a few times in my life when I knew someone was getting close to death, but never quite knew how close it really was. Sometimes they welcome a visit, sometimes they do not want us to see them “that way”, and sometimes we do not want to intrude into their private space or family time. But I am not sure if I ever really had the opportunity to really say goodbye.

I just lost a sweet friend recently, a breast cancer sister who had been struggling for a time. She and I have traveled a similar path but at different timing, and things were getting very hard for her. She did not want to see me or our group of 6 local Glen Ellen women, a group of sweet sisters who have all been affected by cancer, most personally themselves, or a spouse.

Our close group met monthly for lunch, we checked in on each other often via text and email and phone calls, we would talk about our cancers, our children and grandchildren, just life in general. We would laugh, we would cry, and we would just be there to support each other in any way we could.

So today I’m saying goodbye to Sharon, even though she left her worldly body on Friday. I didn’t get to do that face-to-face, or even over the phone or otherwise. I thought there would be more time. I hoped there would be that opportunity. I know she knew how I felt, how our group felt. We shared so much.

But for now, I can only send her my prayers of love and comfort, my thanks that she is out of pain and in peace, my gratitude for the support she offered to me, AND my hope and prayers that her family is ok, or will be in time.

I’ve already told Mark that I’m ok with visitors when my time comes. But I know that could change, and family always comes first.

Cherish every moment. Tell those you love how you feel. You may not get the chance before their time comes. And if you don't have, or take, the opportunity, know that they know and understand your love and feelings for them.

Goodbye sweet Sharon....

Filling my life with love, laughter, family & friends!

~ Peace and Love ~

B  E  L  I  E  V  E


THANKS for visiting! I look forward to your comment.

You can also find me on Facebook, Ravelry, and just occasionally on Instagram and Twitter. Just click the word above to go there.

No comments:

Post a Comment

Thank you for visiting and leaving a comment. Your comment will be reviewed and approved the next time I visit.